I knew this was gonna happen I could feel it in your kiss that night As if your lips mouthed “goodbye” straight to my tongue It tasted bittersweet Like tears mixed with cigarettes I hold you longer than I usually would have Clinging on to your warmth Inhaling your musky scent I wonder whether you noticed Was it me? Was it you? Or is it just this twisted universe? I tried to place the blame These broken pieces lead me nowhere You’re no longer reachable Like a ghostly wind that flew on by I tried to rewind, But I guess I’m a fool for even trying
"Wake up everyone How can you sleep at a time like this Unless the dreamer is the real you Listen to your voice The one that tells you to taste past the tip of your tongue Leap and the net will appear" make it mine - jason mraz
I see passion Intense flaming emotion Like that one balmy summer night Your fingertips tracing along my curves The whole world spins out of control Away we go Beyond the moon Beyond the stars Beyond beyond the milky way Storm and thunder Lost in ecstasy Rage and lust You’re the passion Baby, I’m the flame
"I could see us holding hands Walking on the beach, our clothes in the sand I could see us on the countryside Sittin' on the grass layin' side by side" my love - justin timberlake
"tell me about the sunset in sweden and the laws of eden" -jason mraz (0% interest)
Intrigue me Fascinate me Tell me about the stars and the moon the tales across the oceans and the legends beneath the earth
Allure me Serenade me Sing to me the beauty of heaven’s angels the melodies of summer rains and the symphony of sunset glow
Swept me off my feet Take my breath away Romance me with the colours of the roses the taste of vintage wines and the scent of midnight passion
But most of all, Love me Simply love me I want the sincerity of your heart The truth behind your eyes The soul, the flesh and the bones The mind, the words and the dreams
From each little pieces (flaws and perfection faults and redemption) Till the entity that is you
If i reach out my hand, would you guide me through this maze? Would you stand by me, and wipe away these falling tears?
Life has been hectic. To be more specific, the current pimple-inducing stressor would be my social psychology lab report which is due next week. Most of it is my fault, i must admit. I mean honestly, if being in denial is a talent, I would probably win Australia’s/America’s/Britain’s Got Talent in a heartbeat. Susan Boyle got nothing on me. 100 millions youtube hits? Blah.. try one billion!
Even right now, I’ve got an abundance of work to do. From researching to reading to analyzing and of course the dreaded writing and editing part to do. But what am I doing instead of all of those? Lying on the sofa aimlessly browsing the net of course! I’m the number one procrastinator. The queen of all couch potatoes.
But most of all, apparently I’m a drama seeker. There’s this one guy on Oprah, who said that he purposely skip paying all of his bills cause he loves getting those “last notices” warning and just paying them at the last possible moment. He said he got thrills and excitements out of barely escaping trouble. And you know what, I think I’m exactly like that guy. For some reason I guess I crave that fear driven motivation. The one that just shut downs the rest of the world and set you off on this intense race against time. Hunger and silly little worries just flew out of your mind, and on that rare moment, distraction means nothing and you’re simply focus on one exact thing. As stressful and tiresome those few hours might be, the satisfaction that you felt after you accomplishing that risky goal is just priceless. That guy is right, barely escaping trouble is an adventure like no other. Risky, but damn exhilarating.
But then again, it’s one hell of a crazy gamble. One day I probably won’t make it at all. Stepped out of the casino with minus $10,000 on my bank account. Got hunted down by the debt loaner. And ended up crouching underneath some filthy bridge, begging for money. Or in my case, a big nasty fail in my social psych subject.
I need to get my priorities straight. Take some responsibilities for my own action. Stop making lame excuses. Grow up and be an adult. The future keeps on throwing me these empty promises, and silly me, I’m kept on buying them like an impulsive shopaholic. “It’s okay, I can just do it tomorrow”. Yea right, if tomorrow you mean the morning before the assignment is due that is.
Blah.. I’m annoying myself. Even after I post this, I’ll probably just keep on lying on the sofa. Same old. Same old. I’m such a bum, it’s not even funny.
"Just because you feel it doesn't mean it's there" (There There - Radiohead)
I should scribble those words on my bathroom mirror Not with a bashful pink lipstick But using a bloody red rouge
I need it to be loud Confronting And attention grabbing
So that there’s no way I can over look it No way I can miss it I need it as a daily reminder As a morning wake up call
Like the blazing sound of my alarm Or like a strong cup of black coffee
I need it to pull me back to reality To shake off this clouded mind This foolish heart This naïve self
This distorted mind This gullible heart This illusive illusive self
Fiction, I’ve come to realize that it was all just in my head All these times I’ve been writing an epic love story A fantasy so beautiful it distorted my logic This heart beats to an empty hope An imaginary idea of what I want us to be
Honorable prince charming Majestic white horse
Evil dragons Medieval castles
Who am I kidding, This ain’t no fairy tale. You're no prince charming and i ain't no Cinderella
No.. Ain’t no Cinderella.. I’m definitely.. Ain’t no Cinderella
My oh my.. Look at this neglected blog Stinky like a stray dog Dusty like a haunted mansion
Forgive me for being such a lazy ass blogger I’m still alive Nothing happened I wasn’t abducted by the aliens Nor was I busy with uni craps I’m actually enjoying my winter break at the moment (one month holiday suckerrrrr)
I was just being my escapist self Shutting down the outside world Living in a timeless world Hibernating with my family over here in Indonesia
Haven’t even opened msn and facebook for ages I'm one awful friend I was just either laying around on the sofa watching the telly Or sitting up straight creating polyvore sets and listening to Jason mraz
I got no valid reason for my disappearance I guess that’s what I’m trying to say
But I’m happy No, not happy Joy… Yes, that’s what this is.. I feel joy Deep inner peace Like everything is going well It feels right In place Exactly I guess I’m exactly where I suppose to be
I'm overjoyed and over loved and feeling lucky Like a little boy who's hiding under covers And looking to discover any way to play the part inside his darkened cave Well the meaning of life it starts at the nightlight Close your eyes and hope to see mine
Well I've seen a thousand things in one place But I stopped my counting when I saw your face Erasing memory I feel as though I've never seen a face before Until I saw your eyes smiling back at me through my tears I've been counting all these years Now suddenly the thousand things I've seen were Nothing more than dreams of you and me
You and me quietly at a stand still Fortunately you will kiss me and I'll kiss you back Fact of the matter of is that I don't know what the latter is That I always wanted to kiss you but I always wanted to run from you Because I always wanted to miss you And that I've always wanted to come for you
So... how do you do? (1000 things - Jason Mraz)
yes, just another romantic polyvore set inspired by jason mraz's song i hope you're not rolling your eyes at me.. but what can i say, the man brings out the hopeless romantic in me :D
Do you hear me, I'm talking to you Across the water across the deep blue ocean Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams I feel your whisper across the sea I keep you with me in my heart You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend Lucky to have been where I have been Lucky to be coming home again Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
They don't know how long it takes Waiting for a love like this Every time we say goodbye I wish we had one more kiss I'll wait for you I promise you, I will ... And so I'm sailing through the sea To an island where we'll meet You'll hear the music fill the air I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees Move so pretty you're all I see As the world keeps spinning round You hold me right here right now (Lucky - Jason Mraz ft Colbie Caillat)
"You float on by Oh kiss me with your eyelashes tonight Or Eskimo your nose real close to mine And let's mood the lights and finally make it right" Butterfly - Jason Mraz
This heart couldn’t resist Surrendered within one gaze Take me along with you Wherever that may be To the sun To the sea Across the mountains Or beneath the earth For as long as you hold my hand Everything seems to fade away As suddenly you’re all I see And suddenly you’re all I feel
Wise men say only fools rush in But I cant help falling in love with you Shall I stay Would it be a sin If I cant help falling in love with you
Like a river flows surely to the sea Darling so it goes Some things are meant to be Take my hand, take my whole life too For I cant help falling in love with you
Like a river flows surely to the sea Darling so it goes Some things are meant to be Take my hand, take my whole life too For I cant help falling in love with you For I cant help falling in love with you (Can't help falling in love - Elvis Presley)
and for some reason, i just realized that it's actually Saturday. oh my gawwwwd saturday my ass! it feels more like a frustrating monday morning or an exhausting thrusday night where's my weekend spirit? it evaporates along with my boiling brain, i suppose madness madness madness
5.50 am. pitch black sky here i am wide awake a mug full of milky coffee on my right pages after pages of historical and philosophical readings all around me
my mind is filled with words like brain mind gallery museum psychiatry history critique examine evaluate madness lunatics asylums lobotomy shorter scull foucault madness madness madness
it's all over the place scattered in a unorganized manner here there everywhere upside down inside out
i need to take a deep breath focus focus focus somehow all of these knowledge need to be constructed into a 2500 words critical essay how? i don't know. somehow i guess
i got less than 11 hours. it's me vs time again same old. same old. shake my hand, time and oh, was that a gun blase i hear? the crowd cheered and so the race begins..
Be my sunshine for the night I’m craving your warmth and I'm needing your love The pulsing of your veins and the beating of your heart Boy, won’t you fog up the glass Just let me seek comfort in your touch Cause there's nothing else i wanna do other to just stop the world and simply melt with you...
Moving forward using all my breath Making love to you was never second best I saw the world thrashing all around your face Never really knowing it was always mesh and lace I'll stop the world and melt with you You've seen the difference and It's getting better all the time There's nothing you and I won't do I'll stop the world and melt with you (Melt With You - Modern English)
In my ideal world I would be : - laying around on my dark brown sofa - snuggling underneath the warmth of my blanket - watching Sleeping Beauty - swooning and sighing at disney’s beautiful yet extremely unrealistic portrayal of love - singing along to Aurora and Prince Phillip’s rendition of Once Upon a Dream - while chowing down on caramel popcorn and chucking down cream soda
In reality I am : - sitting on my icy blue study desk - with burning orange blossom scented candle on my right - and melbourne’s night view on my left - reading pages after pages of grim and depressing stories about mental illness, the asylums, lobotomy and electrical shock therapy - trying not to tear my hair out while struggling to write this stupid 2500 words essay for my Minds and Madness subject
God, it's in times like these that I start to question my dream of being a clinical psychologist Days after days of reading such heartbreaking and haunting stories are starting to take its toll on me. I mean seriously, going psycho over psychology and going mad over minds&madness.. how fricking ironic is that!?
7.27 pm. I need to hand it in before 5pm tomorrow, which is actually already a day late (= -2%). *sigh* I absolutely got no valid excuse Just complete laziness and utter denial on my part Cross out the Little Miss Daydream header, it should’ve said Little Miss Last Minute
Word count : 0 Words remaining : 2500 Damn, it’s gonna be loooooooooooooong night
"Blessed are the hearts that can be bend, they shall never be broken. But I wonder? If there's no breaking and no healing. And if there's no healing, then there's no learning. And if there's no learning, then there's no struggle. But struggle is a part of life. So must all hearts be broken." -Lucas Scott (One Tree Hill s5 ep11)
"Tell him yes," she said. "Even if you are dying of fear, even if you are sorry later, because whatever you do, you will be sorry all the rest of your life if you say no." (Love in the Time of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez)
I don't wanna be like Cinderella Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting For a handsome prince to come and save me On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side Don't want to depend on no-one else I'd rather rescue myself ... I can slay, my own dragon I can dream, my own dreams My knight in shining armour is me So I'm gonna set me free Cinderella - Tata Young
i'm perfectly capable of rescuing myself, thank you.
shit happens stop sulking wipe it clean flush it down the drain move on
bla bla bla bla bla just another case of easier said than done if only it's that simple reality bites oh yes it does
still stuck in the purple era can't find my silver lining they're way over there little dots in the distance and i'm here still in square one
plan A made me cry feel like a complete idiot ever believing him plan B moved on without me she got her own new life now got no plan C out of back up plans ran out of safety nets where do i go from here who's gonna catch me when i fall
i guess i should just accept that nothing lasts forever not friendship not love not life nothing is eternal forever is never
Uni work is pilling up. Crap! My stess level is rising up. Double Crap! Spanish tarea (250 words) : Friday 3rd April Biological Psychology Lab Report (1300 words) : Monday 6th April Minds and Madness’ Essay (1500 words) : Thursday 9th April That’s a whole lotta reading, analysing, writing, and editing to do Crap. Crap. Crap. Crap. CRAP!!!
Have been skipping Spanish class lately. Got no excuse Just plain laziness and off the chart denial level. It’s SO gonna bite me in the ass later. I know. Watev Can’t be bother to think about it now
Finally back on my eating healthy plan. Chicken soup. Boiled egg. Grilled salmon. Low-fat Strawberry yogurt. Skim Milk. Finally lost another kilo. Reaching up to 14kgs weight lost in total. Yes!!
Craving chocolate chip cookies. And anything deep fried. Chips. Chips. And more chips. KFC near my place is super tempting. Grease and crunch. Chocolate. Chocolate and more chocolates. Sweet and more sweets. Arghhhh Late night cravings are the worst!!
Got a HUGE zit right on the middle of my chin. Super gross!! Gonna pop it later. While I wash my face.
Watching American idol at the moment. Matt is soulful Justin Timberlake meets Michael buble So true indeed Chris is cute I’m starting to like him Anoop is so so sweet My favourite. Love his soothing voice. Megan is quirky Love her. Simon is hilarious as ever. Love his wit My favourite judge Usually agree with what he thinks
Got 9am psychology lab class tomorrow Not looking forward to waking up early I’ll be tired and grumpy Can picture it already
Thinking of skipping yet another Spanish class Calculating the consequence on my head I think I will Skip another class Damn!
Almost 1am. Need to wake up 8am tomorrow. Need at least 7 hours of sleep to function. Internet is addictive. Can’t stay away from facebook and polyvore. I need to stop tho. Need to wash my face. And pop that zit.
rain, latte, and all things mellow
